Wednesday, 16 July 2008

Should I mention....

That I have quit smoking? Will it last? I hope so... It already feels better, just this amazing pull both ways, one to end the hunger of that nicotine beast thrashing around by lighting one of Obe's fags and keep smoking, or to smile through this period, knowing that it isn't that hard, really, however hard it actually feels. Yeah. You want a cigarette Zubairi? This isn't suffering, get real!

The other side of it is a great joy that it's actually working, that I fear that I might actually succeed....

Or maybe this is an 'up' day. We're meant to have up days and down days. Just like normal, non-smokers. Maybe that's all it is....

I'm in my 3rd day of it. I came out to Obe last night. He was a bit shocked. He didn't know I'd quit. Mind you, we hardly see each other as I'm always out boozing and whoring apparently....

Not true.

I'm more or less teetotal.

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